Monday, March 16, 2009


What a hectic month this has been. I am trying to get my affairs in order to move out of Utah and back to California. Everytime we think we are moving forward something hits us and pushes us 10 miles back.
My youngest daughter informed me of her decision to live with her mother in Idaho. I call and text her and she acts like she has no need for me anymore. So heart breaking. I have raised her since she was 2 (she is 13 now) and now I feel like I have lost her. I am hoping this is just a phase she is going through but I can't be sure.
I feel sad all the time and know I have to put on a brave face to keep my sanity. I honestly feel like I am slowly going insane. I feel like nothing in my life is controllable and nothing makes sense anymore.

Ok enough of my doom and gloom.

3 comments:

Mike and Tonia said...

Nicole, I love you!!! Things WILL get better. Every time you feel down in the dumps just think of Shantel with her hair slicked back, and me ,you and Cory in the background singing In the Still of the Night. LOL

ALICIA said...

I'm sorry!! Everything happens for a reason I so we're told. Be tough. I'll be thinkin' about ya.

Lora said...

You're moving!? No way! I'm sorry you're going through some rough times. I love you Nicole!